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OMG! I received mail from Min! Haha. Enough to keep me smiling for a day. Gawd i sound lesbian. Haha. Who cares? Still Remember her sending me a text. Retard! Haha. Just to tell me that my name appeared on a maths question. MIN!! Expensive can. But I still love her all the same. An sms is faster than snail mail though. I don't know why, but i prefer snail mail to e-mail. Like it's so fun waiting in eager anticipation for that letter. When it finally comes, i scream. I think Min's letter is as good as an orgasm. Haa. Okay, oversharing. But it's my blog and I write what I want. Comment on it if u want. (=Right. I'm finally home, I'm finally online. I missed my doggie and my laptop and my guitar !!
I thought since I was working at Bishan this weekend, I may as well stay over at grandma's. Nearer than kembangan. It also meant no comp, no internet. Well, I can't have everything. Gotta compromise at some point.
Gawd. Working at roadshows are motherfucking tiring! Swear! Can die. Haa. I never stood for a whole day in a long long long time. I think the last time that happened was in primary sch? Like eons ago. Misconception many ppl have when I say that is that I was standing for punishment. Not even! I was in percussion band. Cool shit. Imagine a pri sch girl playin a drum set. Haha. Drummer girl. So long ago. I lost touch. I'm a guitar person now. SOME ppl even ask me to play for them. SOME ppl write songs and ask me to find the right chords for them. Those songs are irrinoying. Sooooo many flats and sharps.But SOME ppl don't even understand these musical terms. She's so gonna KILL me, I'm suan-ing her and everyone's reading this. But I still love her la. Haha. I love my friends. I mentioned that before.
Okk. I can't decide if I'm happy or tired or what. So I can't decide the title for this entry. I will just leave it untitled again.
As I was saying about roadshows. They are tiring. But the money earned is worth the hours standing and what's irritating about this job is not only the standing. Haa.
I can't count how many times people have been asking me what my race is. I AM PURE CHINESE for gawd's sakes. I understand chinese. I can speak chinese. Sheesh. I have a chinese name too. It's MIN MIN. I'm proud of it. I repeat, I understand chinese. Countless times ppl talk abt me in chinese and they wonder why I'm looking at them then they finally realise I understood everything they said. At least they weren't talking bad abt me. I thought I was over all that mistaking me for another race thingy. But then again, I still meet new peeps and the same questions always pop up. Especially about my race. The next question would be whether i have a boyfriend.
Yes, I'm single. But unavailable. I don't wanna boyfriend. at least not for now.
The next time anyone asks abt my availability, I will say I have a boyfriend. Plenty boyfriends. At least then, they would stop asking and asking. My dad taught me to say that. He taught me many things that other dad's normally wouldn't. I have the coolest daddy in the whole wide world. He's also the reason why I have no tattoo and why I am not taking a bike license. Love him loads. I'm your typical daddy's girl.
I'm happy being single. Anyways, I already have 2 darlings. Though Wayne's useless, he's still my darling. Haha. He's nice to make fun and talk cock to. So's Brandon. Brandon easier to click with ah. BUT, Min's still the best. Haha. I don't want a boyfriend now. I've been in unhappy relationships, too many. I've been in happy relationships, too little. Those happy r/s were short and sweet. They were just memories. better left that way.
I still think I'd rather have good guy friends than be in a relationship with any one of them. At least then I know we are good friends. Rather than to be in a r/s with them then end up not talking. Worse than being strangers really. Like I said I love my friends and I don't wanna spoil the r/s.
I do feel lonely at times. I'm still human after all. I do long for that feeling of falling asleep in my boyfriend's arms, or him fetching me from work or school, or the simplest thing like a text message sayin I love you or how're you, or staying in during the weekends just cuddling on the sofa watching tv or re runs of retarded shows. Even if it's retarded, it's fine cuz we're enjoying each other's company. I do miss that feeling of loving and being loved. i miss the undivided attention from a special someone.
Even though these thoughts come to mind, I still think I'd prefer to remain single. The above mentioned are just the happy moments. There're still the arguments, the disagreements, the silent treatments, in some cases, the cheating, blah blah.
But being single means no attachment to anyone, it means freedom. That's really what I need right now, my freedom and space. I need to breathe. No restrictions whatsoever. Free to give my number to anyone i want, free to flirt with just anyone, free to do shit. I'm loving life.
-Grey Sky Morning by Vertical Horizon
posted by Rinster @ 3:12 am
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