THE ROCKSTAR.

i've decided to care less. to protect myself. so i wont hurt.

last night when you laid this on me, i went back to my old self.
i smoked. it was my coping mechanism.
after sitting there for like forever, smoking, emo-ing away. i decided that i dont wanna be like how i used to be. unhealthy emotionally.

after making that decision, i didnt even feel the urge to smoke anymore.
my heart felt lighter.

but like i said,
you know how i feel about you.
you know too much. so much so that i've put myself in a very vulnerable position.

not texting you doesnt mean i dont care.
im just guarding myself.

i'll just have to wait til you come back.

posted by Rinster @ 9:37 pm